Had another dream last night, I think there may be some answers in this one:

I'm in my house and preparing for a dinner party. All my collegues from the kindregarden I work in are invited. I'm wondering where my boyfriend and our daughter is, and one of my collegues tells me that they are having dinner with one of the mothers from the kindregarden and her daughter. I get angry cause he hasn't told me.

Suddenly he is there and I say something sarcastic, letting him know I'm angry at him. The appartement is filling up with people and I'm sure they also notice that I'm angry at him.

I go out on the balcony to have a cigarette and I see the full moon in the early evening sky, very low, just above the mountains in the distance, and it is huge, I've never seen it that big before, and I can see the deatails in the landscape on it. I'm facinated and I knock on the window to show it to the people inside.

Next we are all out in the garden, which is now transformed to look more like the outside area of the kindregarden. It's suddenly daytime and sunshine. We're picking up toys, tidying up, and my boss is there and she says to me and two other women: Come on girls, rub your breasts now! I undrestand that it's some kind of a joke, and we do it, and I say "POWER, POWER, POWER" as a response to her joke. She giggles and wonders why I am saying that and I explain: With our breasts we have the power to control both our children and our men, cause they both depend on them.

We all go inside and now my mother is there, wearing a red shirt (she never wears red) and she is now the hostess of the party. I emmediately feels that she is stressed out, and not happy, because there are too many people there, and many of them are wearing strange clothes and look like freaks.
She comes towards me saying: Isn't the music too loud, and even though I'm annoyed with her, I feel responsible and a bit sorry for her, so I agree and turn the music down. I can feel that she is still very unpleased and I ask her in a sarcastic way: "Are you worried about something?" She doesn't respond but she looks outside at the young men who are climbing on a large construction of ladders just outside. They are wearing funny large hats, playing like children.

My mother then starts to serve dinner, some kind of meat stew, and she obviously just want this party to be over. I notice that the portions she is serving the guests are very small, not filling up the paper plates. For desert there is going to be icecream, but I can see that it won't be enough for everyone. I feel really embarrased about the whole situation.

So what do you think?

Inanna

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Inanna,
Here are a few thoughts to your dream. I'll give a thorough interpretation later today. Have pressing 'social duty' matters to attend to this morning.

I do believe the dream is addressing some of the same issues we have already discussed. The last part of the dream where your mother enters may be a metaphor for you as an adult. Childhood issues carried over into adulthood may be the 'transformation' this part of the dream is addressing.
But at the same time it may be addressing real mother issues. Inside issues may be you and childhood issues while the 'outside' issues may be about your real mother. Or some past experience involving her that is 'imprinted' on your psyche. What was the relationship with mother like?

Also the men climbing on construction ladders and acting like children. Could this be an assessment of how you feel most men act, childish. Or is it your own underdeveloped masculine attitudes {childish}?

Inquiring minds need to know.....

Gerard

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Thank you for your thoughts. I think the dream is adressing both my relationship with my mother and inner issues. I wonder if the gigantic full moon is a clue stating that this is about the feminine aspects in my life, the hidden and the unconcious.The moon seems to appear at the centre of this dream, so to say.

I also have some thoughts on the red shirt she is wearing. Could it be that it is a symbol of love? I've come to understand that she didn't give me the love and comfort I needed as a child, what she was able to give was not enough (serving small portions of food)Because of this I'm very hungry for love as an adult, and I often feel that I'm noever getting enough. This is also the negative message I give myself, what ever i do and accomplish, it is never good enough. So I think I've carried over this feeling from my childhood into adulthood.

You're right about me seeing men as childish. I feel so much responsibility and often feel burdened, so I often get irritated by watching most men going through life like it's their only duty to enjoy and have fun. I often see this in my surroundings too, the women have been raised to take responsibility, and the men are allowed to just do their best to have a good time.

What do you think? What about my collegues and my boss in the dream? What do they represent?

Take your time responding, there's no hurry

Inanna

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Inanna,
The moon is a feminine symbol, and often symbolizes transformations or new cycles in life. Perhaps your 'inner garden' is ready for 'transformation' in your outer world. It would be a new thing in your life, a new learning experience {kindergarten}.

The red could be the love of which you speak. Most of us in some way lack proper love and acceptance in early life and it goes throughout life and often influences who we are and what we become. Wearing it {shirt} fits with this possibility.

The boss and colleagues. This could in some way be addressing actual relationships but most likely is metaphor for other aspects of your psyche. Your whole being {boss and colleagues} is ready to undergo new experiences, learning to be your true self. Addressing the mother issues may be the 'beginning' of realizing what is at the center of your 'childishness'. Can you do this alone or do you need help from a professional? It is important you continue down this path of self discovery if you wish to find true balance in your life. Just think, no more embarrassment from acting out childish behavior because you have realized what the stimulus is for these actions. The moon is about to cast its shadow, and new moon is on the horizon. That moon is you. Stay with it, and go with it. I that you do. Such realizations that do become transforming makes my work here at the forum most rewarding.

Gerard

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Gerard,
I really hope you're right. I've been praying that it is some kind of transformation in process in my life for a long time now. That is the only way I manage to live with the pain that emerges from time.

I get professional help, and she says the same thing: Circumstances in my life at this point have triggered early childhood memories and traumas, and the fear and anger I feel now, really belongs to a five-year old girl who has experienced a total loss of safety.

I kind of lost my mother back then, when she found a new man and left me out of it all. I didn't even get to go to the wedding ceremony at the city hall, that pretty much says it all. He was only 19 at the time, and I still can't understand why she didn't bother to think twice about finding me a new father, rather than a much younger boyfriend.

Well, I have been reliving this experience of beeing put aside and replaced in my current relationship, as my boyfriend had a hard time handling me and chose to turn his back at me and focus only on other people and activities that didn't include me. He also had an interest in chatting with other girls, while he didn't really talk to me at all.

I had a really though time and he didn't support me, and I'm still struggling to accept it, although he finally realized it was wrong and not what he wanted, and is now doing all he can to repair our relationship. The problem is me keeping it all alive and constantly reminding myself of what happened, and of how he let me down. I think it's so hard to forgive and move on, because I felt the same shock when he suddenly wasn't there, as I did when my mother lost interest in me.
These feelings came up again now a couple of days ago, and it's been really hard. I keep on telling myself it is a cleansing that needs to be done, but it's been going on for so many years now, it's sometimes hard to believe it is a higher purpose to it. I feel that I see my past, and I see that to free myself of it is what needs to be done, but I just can't find the strength and trust in myself to do it.

But thank you for your words it gives strenght to my faith as I'm walking blindfolded into the shaddows..

I have this other part of myself telling me to keep on going, and it's been easier to hear lately too. So it seems like there is something good growing behind it all..

Inanna

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