Haloh,
Thanks for the response. Because of your country of origin the cultural aspects would be very significant in your life and your dreams. Being a person who has a developed sense of 'enlightenment' but coming from it is understandable why you have nightmares. Conforming to the cultural aspects is completely opposite of what you feel deep inside you. Unfortunately Western cultures with their patriarchal religions are reluctant to accept 'free thinkers'. Living in such conditions can be a nightmare in itself, not conforming to the rule can be even dangerous.

About your dreams. Although my 'thing' is working with dreams I do not encourage everyone to do so on a continuing basis. I only pay attention to those dreams I have that I deem important. Most are 'ordinary' dreams to the greatest extent {although all dreams have meaning} and trying to analyze all of them is not something I feel necessary at this juncture in my life. If you feel your dreams are having a negative impact you do not need to give great attention to them until you feel it 'safe' to do so. Your dreams reflect your life as it is in the present. If you already know, and understand, the conditions in your life I suggest you give attention to finding ways to get past those barriers that hold you back. Certainly there are negative aspects from your past that reflect become unconscious wounds and your dreams will reflect that. But the conscious wounds seem to be the greatest task to overcome. My suggestions is to find that place where you can feel comfortable with yourself. If you continue to live in Egypt that would require you to find like minded persons where you can share your deepest thoughts and desires, and be able to express your true self. Of course if there is that possibility of moving to a more 'enlighten' society that would be even better as long as you can support yourself. The greatest joy in life, and this is something most do not discover {if ever} until later in life {from personal experiences}, is to be your true self, to be able to express what you feel deep inside. It is usually social duty that creates greatest barriers to that true self whether it be in Egypt or America {my only true barrier is having to work to make a living when my greatest desire is to work with dreams full time}.
This is what I call the social dragon.

About spirituality. What is in your soul is the only path you could ever be happy with. I grew up in the Christian faith but in later life found it too confining for my free thinking mind. Then I discovered Joseph Campbell which led me to the discovery of my true self and true spirituality. For me the spiritual self is within nature. Jesus, the Buddha and even Mohammad represent a path to true spirituality but not the only way. All religions are myths and instead of throwing them away because they do limit your ability to grow, you use them metaphorically, let their experiences fit with your life and not yours theirs. Jesus dying on the cross and being resurrected is what must happen to you, dying to the ego centered self and being resurrected to the 'true' spiritual Self and living from that center. It is a psychological event as much if not more so than a physical one. Being who you truly are, that is what the dream wishes for you to be. Getting there is a psychological and physical act that requires courage and discipline. 'God' make provide you with the tools but it is you who must work to achieve your goals. At the age of 33 you are entering the most prosperous time in your life. But instead of focusing on the material things in life you wish to discover that true spiritual Self. You are on the right track, wishing to be that true spiritual being you know is within. Getting there is the difficult part.

Let me comment more later today or in the morning. Unfortunately the 'social dragon' awaits my attention and I must give my energies to my day job. If you wish to comment n what I have provided please do so. You can 'open up' here and say what is in your heart.

Jerry

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Hello, many thanks for your reply :)

I'm feeling a lot better now. I think that nightmare (that i spoke of above) where i heard that whispery voice and couldn't open my eyes, not quite knowing whether i was dreaming or if it was really happening really put a lot of fear into me and opened up the floodgates to many of my deepest darkest fears in general. (I wonder what you might think that dream meant?) I was concerned that all my dreams would then follow on to take that kind of nightmarish tone, and that i would be overwhelmed by fear & scary nightmares for a time, but it didn't happen, no nightmares since (phew!) and i'm feeling much more like 'normal' again.

I'm not used to having nightmares at all, and so having them in a row was a bit of a shock to the system. It did seem like they came to me right at the point at which i started to pay real attention to my dreams (after a long time of not paying too much attention to them at all), and so i thought that somehow i had 'brought them on' or something. That's why i thought that perhaps it might be best not to note down my dreams for a while.

As i mentioned in the reply to my other dream, i don't actually live in Egypt, im just here for a little while. I don't actually live anywhere, i suppose. i've just been travelling for 7 years (mostly in Asia) though i was born in Egypt and spent most of my early life growing up in the UK (a very strict Egyptian & muslim upbringing hence the feeling that i need to conform as shown in my dreams).

In terms of finding a spiritual community, people have recommended that to me before. It would be nice to be around like minded people. But for now i cant imagine staying in one place long enough to make that happen!

I truly believe what you say about the greatest joy is to your true self, not bound by the restrictions of social duty. I am the perfect example of a person who has absolutely no (outward) ties to society whatsoever, my life is totally out of the norm in that i haven't even stayed in one city for more than a few months for many, many years, always travelling from one country to the next, but outwardly though i don't conform at all or belong to any society, inwardly it seems i cant shake the restrictions put on me by my strict upbringing. It is interesting to me that someone so totally free from the restrictions of any society is unconsciously so totally trapped within cultural expectations & feels such a strong deep desire to 'fit in'.. Something for me to work on & think about!

Thanks again for your interpretations, they were very helpful & have given me much to think about!!

:)

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