Thank you again, Jerry. It always takes me a while to get back to you. This time, though, things have unfolded over the past couple of weeks that are so amazing...I've had a long road to figure out why I have been feeling and acting the way I have for the last year, and you've been a great help :).

Years ago, when I tried some counseling a few different times, I would be so reluctant to go back to my childhood, because my parents were "good" people and never did anything "bad" to me, so I was never able to heal those very neglected parts of myself. I finally allowed myself to go back there and realized my dad never paid any attention to me and couldn't really be bothered with his children...that was really a hard thing to see. This directly correlates with my issues currently with men and the anxiety when someone pulls back from me.

My mother was always very cold and did not hand out love/praise/touch unless there was a tragedy in the family.

I don't remember receiving acknowledgement from either for anything creative that I did. I shut most of that off at a very young age, like around 4 or 5.

I see all of this in the last several dreams I have posted here.

Now, I have this burst of creative energy that is difficult to contain :). I have also met several aspects of self that have been repressed over the years. A couple of times I've even said to myself, "where did SHE come from," as I was a bit shocked by what came out of me lol.

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Angie,
Your reluctance to look back at your childhood is a classic example of repressing those memories to uphold a belief you parents were good parents. The exact reason for this would require a deeper examination of your psyche. But the final discovery that your parents did not live up to their responsibilities may be the big step in resolving much of those barriers in your life that have held you back from discovery your true identity. Your relationship with men has been unconsciously tainted by the early life experiences with your father. The negative impact from your mother relationship probably will be realized with further examination. Either way you have 'come across the truth' and when we look at your dreams we can see they were pointing in that direction all along. Whereas the conscious ind can be often fooled, it is not the same with the unconscious.

As for your creativity. In Jungian psyche it is the creative aspect that holds true meaning in life. And as Joseph Campbell stated, 'it makes you feel alive'.

	“People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonances without own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.” ― Joseph Campbell, The Power of Myth

"Now, I have this burst of creative energy that is difficult to contain".

Go with that and life will open up like you never could 'imagine'. It is to a great degree {physical fitness being the other} why I have been able to sustain my life in the positive and discover and express my creative self {in the pages at Myths-Dreams-Symbols}. Self examination is what we now call the 'inner journey'. And with a true and deep examination one will ultimately discover the muse, the creative, and in the process the spiritual.


Jerry

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"As for your creativity. In Jungian psyche it is the creative aspect that holds true meaning in life. And as Joseph Campbell stated, 'it makes you feel alive'."

It sure does

I now "remember" what it is I love to do.

This has been one of the most amazing experiences, and I thank you for all of your input.

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