Angie,
Your reluctance to look back at your childhood is a classic example of repressing those memories to uphold a belief you parents were good parents. The exact reason for this would require a deeper examination of your psyche. But the final discovery that your parents did not live up to their responsibilities may be the big step in resolving much of those barriers in your life that have held you back from discovery your true identity. Your relationship with men has been unconsciously tainted by the early life experiences with your father. The negative impact from your mother relationship probably will be realized with further examination. Either way you have 'come across the truth' and when we look at your dreams we can see they were pointing in that direction all along. Whereas the conscious ind can be often fooled, it is not the same with the unconscious.

As for your creativity. In Jungian psyche it is the creative aspect that holds true meaning in life. And as Joseph Campbell stated, 'it makes you feel alive'.

	“People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. I don’t think that’s what we’re really seeking. I think that what we’re seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonances without own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.” ― Joseph Campbell, The Power of Myth

"Now, I have this burst of creative energy that is difficult to contain".

Go with that and life will open up like you never could 'imagine'. It is to a great degree {physical fitness being the other} why I have been able to sustain my life in the positive and discover and express my creative self {in the pages at Myths-Dreams-Symbols}. Self examination is what we now call the 'inner journey'. And with a true and deep examination one will ultimately discover the muse, the creative, and in the process the spiritual.


Jerry

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"As for your creativity. In Jungian psyche it is the creative aspect that holds true meaning in life. And as Joseph Campbell stated, 'it makes you feel alive'."

It sure does

I now "remember" what it is I love to do.

This has been one of the most amazing experiences, and I thank you for all of your input.

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