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mass shooting and rape

Hi Jerry, I had a disturbing dream that I was in what was supposed to be an abandoned prison, there was a man in army greens with a machine gun shooting innocent people at random. I found a place to hide where I thought I might be safe and it was a prison cell, I entered the cell and closed the door and thought that if I remained really quiet I might be safe, I huddled in the corner and prepared myself in my mind that I might die so that if the shooter entered I would not be frightened of my uncertain death. I then looked up and there was a large man who was a prisoner wearing orange prison clothing. He raped me and out of fear I submitted myself, dissociated and told myself that if I pretend to enjoy it he might let me live. Half way through the rape I woke up. Now here is the reality of my waking life, many years ago I worked as a sex worker, dissociating and pretending became a matter of survival for my soul. My husband prior to us meeting had spent time in prison, however with me he is a most gentle and kind man and we believe that it is what is in both our pasts is what has appreciate each other and have our special bond, we believe we are true soul mates. Does my dream somehow correlate with my waking life? Is there some very important message that can be learnt for us? Or is this somehow related to a deep seated guilt I have about my past? Your insight would be greatly appreciated.
Joanna

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Re: mass shooting and rape

Joanna,
If you will look at these images and think of them as parts of yourself you probably will have instant realizations to what the dream is trying to communicate. These things are 'within you, emotional energies.

The prison would be an 'inner' prison, an emotional state where you may have feelings of 'abandonment'. This might apply to some aspect of your waking life. The man would be a masculine aspect, perhaps to do with a real person{s} and/or to do with your animus {inner masculine aspects}. Wearing army greens may suggest repressed emotions that has caused 'aggressive' changes within you {killing/death usually represents changes/putting an end to something}. There is lost innocence involved. Trying to hide may be hiding/repressing these emotions. What this experience has done is created a prison cell where you hide from 'some thing', a place within yourself you have created that makes you feel safe. That could have to do with repressing past experiences in your life. You feel trapped by these emotions {huddled in corner}. They have changed you as a person.

The large man again may be a real person and also a reference to your animus. Rape may represent feelings of being violated, not just sexually but to do with trust. The submission may have to do with submitting to these violent emotions. Waking up half way through the 'rape' may suggest it is not something you have to continually endure, something put an end to it.

Looking at your added info I can see where these expressions in the dream could fit with those experiences. The waking up half way through the rape may be a statement about ending that type of life {sex worker} and beginning a new life with your husband. Undoubtedly there are repressed emotions to do with those years and there must have been a lot of violent experiences.

But there is probably more to the dream than those experiences. A lot of it probably is about early life and the experiences during those years. Abandonment, huddled in a corner, closing the door to the 'outside' world you lived in so you could find safety in an inner world. There probably were negative experiences during those years that led to your becoming as sex worker. Low self esteem as a child and not having a normal childhood. the issues to do with the years as a sex worker probably have been resolved with your new life with your husband but those early childhood years, the formative years that created the foundations within your psyche are harder to resolve. This is probably why you still have such dreams, as much as the years as a sex worker and those terrible experiences. You most likely would have never become a sex worker if your childhood had been different. This is where any 'treatment' should begin, with childhood experiences.

Jerry



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Re: mass shooting and rape

Jerry, thank you again for such an in depth interpretation of my dream. Everything you said was true, so much that I am crying and need time to come to terms with and fully understand and make full sense of your interpretation, so it might take me some time to respond to you with my own in depth understanding.
Kind regards. Joanna.

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Re: mass shooting and rape

Joanna,
Respond whenever you feel you have it together. I can understand the emotions having recognized my own 'inner child'. I suggest you create a dialog with that 'other you' and talk it over. Explain to 'her' that it was nothing she did wrong. Usually that is what happens when a child is neglected so early in life and that pain goes with you until resolved. A dialog with the inner child is one way to better understand that part of yourself and why you are who you are today.

Jerry

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