Anonymous,
The info is very helpful. I have a list of what I see the images/actions might represent and what you state in your response verifies much of it. I have broken down the whole dream {some dreams I do, some I don't, long ones I often do} and given my take on the symbols. And although I saw possible patterns {you confirmed} to do with your brother {the opening paragraph showed a strong and positive attachment} and the last paragraph depicted the conflicting relationship with your sister, I could not at the time pin down the whole dream. Everything needs to come together and when it does I almost always provide a proper analysis and interpretation.

Something I didn't mention, an aspect of the dream I have yet to collate and determine what aspect in your psyche it is focused, has to do with the numbers. In my thinking {intuitive and Jungian} these numbers are important numbers, the number 9 {81 & 90} always having important meaning, not only in dreams and mythology but the whole of nature {it is associated with the feminine principle, creative and spiritual}.

Notes from my 'Jungian' mind: Dreams and mythology share the same archetypal images/symbols. Dreams and myths are constellations of archetypal images.
Dreams are individual myths, myths universal dreams. A myth is an exaggerated truth, the dream our personal truths

I do appreciate you volunteering the added info. Usually all I have to work with is the age and gender of the dreamer. Those two are most important. But even with only that a trained dream analyst {Jungian} can discern patterns emerging that defines what the images/actions represent and what the prime focus of the dream is. Often a secondary aspect can also be determined also, such as personality traits or developed attitudes/complexes {all dreams have at least two meanings/applications}. Because I do get responses to my interpretations I know whether I am successful in my associations/meaning/application of the symbols and my analysis. As to what degree that success is? Without providing an exact number which I haven't calculated, I can say it is quite high, very high. One need only read the posted dreams to see this.

Of course I have to give Jung credit for most of the success. It is his concepts that allow us to understand dreams.

Jerry

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Anonymous,
There is no question you have high regards for your brother and he probably has been a big influence in your life. His character has helped you in your personal development and you desire to be like him {two gold pair of earrings}. But there is a caveat to this relationship that is 'off', something about yourself that does not measure up to his 'high position'. The added info you provided states you are stuck in your quest for progressing in life. In comparing yourself to your brother's position, this may be what is 'off'. And there seems to be other issues as well in this relationship {comparing your life to his, or you to him}. That seems to be what the rest of the dream is addressing.

The middle paragraphs depict you being confined by emotions about integrating who you are as opposed to who you are expected to be {sex is often a symbol for integrating contrasting/conflicting aspects within one's psyche}. I get the sense you either are putting pressure on yourself in your expectations {something that fits with the added info you provided} and/or others have high expectations of you that you may feel you can not meet or do not think is your true path. The dialog in these middle parts seem to be about choices, ones you have made, those you may feel you should have done differently and those you want to make that fit with who you really are. Whereas your siblings have a set direction in life you are still looking to find your place. Because of your lack of success thus far you have created 'grief' for yourself and perhaps others have caused you grief because of it. This has a lot to do with the pressures on you but is likely an inner issue also {I'll address in concluding my analysis}.

As for the last paragraph related to your sister. I see that as a part of the choices and decision making you are entertaining/pressured in getting your life together. It may be her chosen direction and perhaps a direction she and other family members are pushing on you. This is not who you are. As you stated in the added info she is a fun person but you are not her.

As for the inner issues. I do sense there are other aspects about choices to be made. I get an impression of a choice between 'material' worth compared to 'creative' aspects {creative would include those choices related to your true desires}. The philosophical/spiritual matters may be pointing to those things your soul desires where as other choices involve making money, achieving a better position in life by choosing a path that provides material worth. Whereas the kite is symbolic of higher aspirations to do with your 'higher qualities' {spiritual/creative}, that aspect is 'hurting' as to what choices you are expected to make. To go in a direction other than what your soul desires, that fabric {what you would be made of} is rough and has a heavy texture {feel} to it. I also sense there are intuitive aspects you possess that are attempting to guide you. This would be related to the soul, your true self and should be listed to.

Jerry

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