Ashes,
The opening statement of dreams normally establish what the primary issues are the dream is trying to communicate. Here is what I get from the beginning of your dream.

My sense is the dream is addressing obstacles/challenges having either to do with your husband or/and shared experiences with your husband. There is a need to use your skills in overcoming these obstacles/challenges, perhaps to the point you are in a position that requires merely surviving pressures related to them. There is a need to find ways to progress but things are going in the opposite direction. You and your husband seem to have developed particular attitudes to do with these issues which may have become obstacles in themselves. The situation is so dire {at least at times} it has affected your normal self and you need to find ways to restore emotional or/and physical stability. You have tried to do this but the conflicts have not resulted in desired benefits and there are more pressures from trying. You are in need of finding ways so life is stable and desirable.

The middle part of the dream seems to be focused on having experienced repeated attempts to solve the issues but your husband has taken a particular position opposite to yours {possibly causing conflicts in the relationship}. He may have developed an attitude that seems to thrive on conflict or/and pressures but you just want to find a better way in life. Your husband seems to have had more experience to do with certain aspects related to these issues which may be part of the reason for his 'unyielding' position/attitude. You find yourself following instead of taking the lead which leaves you in an inferior position. You have tried to fit within these parameters but can not continue to do so.

Things are going in opposite directions related to these issues. But there are deeper issues of being alone {which probably go back to childhood foundations} and this causes anxieties that may keep you from doing what needs to be done {what is best for you}. You may be holding back in doing what is needed because of fears it will hurt your husband. But ultimately you know you must do what is right for yourself.

Summary
My sense of the dream is there are issues to do with your husband that are causing conflict. Either serious marital conflicts or/and issues where you and he have strong disagreements. The dream seems to state that you have tried to find ways to rectify the problems but because there are established positions on either side you have not been able to do so. Future attempts to resolve the issues seem to be hopeless. If you do what you feel is right/needed it may negatively affect your husband. The anxieties and pressures related to these issues are very strong and you need to find a way to restore stability to your life.

Jerry

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