It seems like this could be right on. My marriage and life in general have felt very difficult lately. Nothing seems to be going right for me in any area. Physically , mentally, emotionally and spiritually I feel as if I am falling apart.

I had another dream the night before reading this explanation. In my last dream I was just in my house talking to my mom. I told her how sad I was and I felt such despair like I wanted to die, I just felt like collapsing and sobbing because I literally feel so stuck in every aspect of my life for the last 3-5 years. I saw my dead dad and he told me how nice it felt to know when you are going to die, like a relief to leave this trouble I am facing. I don't know how to turn it around.

My church is a source of comfort and simultaneous pain for me. Comfort because I do feel a lot of peace and truth and support, but pain because I feel confused about things that seem out of sync with my value system and what I understand about being Christian.

I want to know all the answers, but I dont trust any answer I receive no matter how blatant it appears. I feel there is no way to know most truths for sure in this life.

I feel a lot of anger at God which seems to sway between blaming him for letting me have these problems followed by a desperateness of wanting him to help me to make sense of them and give me the answers I seek, helping me through this, yet so depressed and contentious that I cannot bring myself to live at the needed spiritual level with prayer and humility and seeking and meditation needed to achieve that desire and receive my answers.

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