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Avena, Second Paragraph -somewhere else/outside mother's childhood friend's country home-childhood experiences associated with mother/rejected-suppressed/repressed experiences/emotions -by forest/lake-unconscious aspects Dream And i am somewhere else. I don't know exactly how to describe this place, but it is outside my mother's childhood friend's country house. I used to spend a lot of time there as a child, and it is sort of by the end of a forest by a lake. Third Paragraph -fish is chasing me-unconscious energies/urges pursing you in conscious life -kill fish-put end to urges to be true self {fish is symbol for urges/true self} -can't bare to do it/it is alive-can't uncover the motivating source -not right to end it's life-emotions that are kept alive by substitution -better to run-avoiding the source -aggressively chases-aggressive emotional energies/urges -beach by lake-emotional state of mind -have to kill it-put end to unconscious energies/urges -can't run forever-can't avoid the underlying reasons -cannot do it by myself-unable to control unconscious energies Dream The fish is chasing me. I somehow know that i have to kill the fish, but i can't bear to do it because it is alive and i feel like it is not right to end it's life. So i decide that it is better to run. And i run and it chases me, very aggressively. I find myself on the beach by the lake and i realize that i really have to kill it, i can't run forever. But i cannot do it by myself. Fourth Paragraph -mother's friend who is mother-rejected aspects related to mother{s} -she's not coming to help-absence of support -make weapon to kill it-develop ways to satisfy urges -making plastic cutlery/spoon/fork -artificial means for needed nourishment -sharp stick-purposeful crutch -taking time/hold fish in place-enduring unconscious energies that help support urges Dream The one who's there to help me is my mother's friend who also is my mother somehow. But she's not coming to help me. She has to make a weapon to kill it, and she's making it out of plastic cutlery, maybe a spoon or a fork that she's making in to a sharp stick or something. She's taking a lot of time and meanwhile i have to hold the fish in place. Fifth Paragraph -hold in place with spoon-control urges by providing nourishment -involuntarily hurt fish-spontaneous urges damage true self -pain by putting pressure- emotional pain pressuring urges/behavior -carving out its gill-removing its energies -disgusted by sight-consciously acknowledging negative aspects -fact I am hurting it-hurting yourself -friend is there with me-living with rejected aspects -hold it/exhausting-unconscious holding it/exhausting emotions -does not need to use spoon-reciprocal actions not needed -holding with hands-ability to control actions -not hurting it-positive actions/experiences that help -my turn again/hold it with spoon-give in to need for substituting needed nourishment -mother's friend sitting with plastic cutlery-rejected mother issues/artificial nourishment Dream I hold it in place with a spoon, a metallic spoon. But as i do it i involuntarily hurt the fish. I cause it pain by putting to much pressure on it, it is like i am carving out it's gills. And i am so disgusted by the sight of this, and by the fact that i am hurting it. And my friend is there with me and i ask her to hold it for a while because it's exhausting. She does not have to use a spoon to hold it in place. She is holding it with her hands. And she's not hurting it. But then it's my turn again and i hold it with the spoon. Meanwhile my mother's friend is sitting with her plastic cutlery a couple of meters away from us, not helping at all. Jerry  
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