Thanks for helping shed light on my dream Jerry, I really appreciate your time.

I found this dream interesting because of the doll acting as a facade. I felt that this had something to do with persona because I do have some conflicts with deciding what parts of me I should present in a social sense. On one hand, I can just smile and listen, observe. On the other hand, I require to be able to express myself, but I feel as though this would be quite different to the predominant social modes I am surrounded by. I find my place in having a few very close relationships and avoiding large groups of people which tend to sap my energy.


In big groups >4 or 5, I've noticed there are times that I feel like I must step into a persona, but I am still struggling to locate something that feels like I am expressing a genuine part of myself. Persona feels uncomfortable recently. That being said, I feel like I do express my true self more now than I did 5 years ago!

Ideally, I would like to integrate expressing myself socially with positively influencing others, and I feel like I'm still developing in some sense.

Having brothers to analyse is useful as there are parts of them I can relate to as active or repressed parts of myself.


Also, I'd like to comment on the whole sensitivity vs. insensitivity thing which seems to be a theme in my life at the moment. Once upon a time, I felt much more cold, hard and impermeable than I am now, seeing anything else as a weakness. After some experimentation and practising techniques such as compassion meditation and what I would call heart chakra opening exercises, this once dominant 'insensitive' mode of operating has become something that I believe I am actively repressing.

There seems to be a polarisation where I have a choice of either 1. Process by thinking, rationalising, becoming impermeable to emotional information or 2. Feel, empathise, become permeable to emotional information and let it affect me. In reality I feel like I can now take some of both 1. and 2. so I'm neither a cold hearted ******* or a sobbing mess! I often acknowledge that I have changed from exclusively 1. to both 1. and 2. and get the sense that I have the choice of processesing things as either 1. or 2. or both.

And now, I often find myself observing other people that are functioning exclusively as 1. and feeling negatively about them, whilst acknowledging 'that was once me.' Projecting I guess.

Paul.

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Paul,
I'll provide a response hopefully tomorrow. I do see your response as fitting with the dream images. A positive dream in many ways reflecting the positive changes you have consciously undertaken in your life.

Jerry

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