Leslie,
There seems to be a mixed bag of emotional issues this dream is addressing. The dream seems to be dealing with the relapsing issues as well as the need for nurturing that has been missing in your life. You are working with the addition problems as well as family issues. You are having to deal with both and because there is so a lot of pressure and stress which makes life is difficult at best. Part of the issue with your addition seems to be directed related to family issues, if not fromproper nurturing in early life then those required aspects missing in the present time. You are having to go it alone without vital support from family members who have their own problems. Your relapse has deeper causes beyond just an physical addition. There are the psychological issues that contribute to your state of mind in the present time. I know a little about the relationship with your sister {which is a negative} but not about your mother. Those experiences, in early life as well as in the present, could add to your relapse. The dream seems to be pointing to those family issues are unresolved which adds to the overall negative attitude. There is a lack of ability to heal yourself in the present time {which may be directed at being addition free for 25 years} having success for 25 years previously.

Here is my interpretation of the images/actions from your dream {dream by paragraph then interpretation}.

I am in a hotel room sleeping. A man named Mike comes in and gets into bed beside me. He starts making business calls and I get up. I go take a bath for relaxation and as I get out I see that I've left the radio right on the edge of the bathtub. I realize 'that was a close one'. I get ready to go to the next hotel room where my cousin and her family are visiting me on vacation.


-hotel room sleeping-unconscious aspects related to experiencing changes
-man named Mike comes in/gets in bed with me-unconscious masculine aspects you are
'in bed' with
-making business calls/I get up-issues/problems you are dealing with
-take a bath for relaxation-cleansing to be free of stress
-see left radio on edge of bathtub-awareness of dangers of relapsing
-realize/close one-knowing you are constantly close to the edge
-ready to move to next hotel room-moving to a new aspect in your life
-cousin/family visiting me on vacation-rejected aspects that have been neglected

Then I am with my mother and sister at a tea party by two older women. They have a bird in a cage which is covered with a towel but I can look at the aquarium they have. My sister begins to gulp alcohol and I yell at her,Lisa!. Then I remember she is responsible for her decisions and I can't help her. Then my Mom points out to me, some beautiful crystal hand bells on a shelf. It is time for the two women to go to bed so we say our thanks and leave.

-with mother/sister at tea party by two older women-needing security/nurturing aspects from past that are in conflict
-bird in cage-aspirations being restricted
-covered with towel-dealing with hidden emotions
-look at aquarium-acknowledging but not yet confronting emotions
-sister begins to gulp alcohol-projected emotions toward sister/self
-her decisions/can't help her-shared experiences
-Mom points out to me/crystal hand bells on shelf-the ability to help/heal self that have been put aside

Jerry

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Hi Jerry,
Much of what you say is very accurate. I have the flu and will respond as soon as I can.

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Hi Jerry,
Well it's amazing what you see in my dream. There is a part of me that wonders if I will relapse. However, some things are starting to fall in to place inside of me.
The family stuff I mention is very heavy. My Mom and sister have a silent contract when it comes to these issues. I found out last year that Mom and Lisa were standing right next to my Dad when he shot himself, and there were several other attempts he made, in the presence of Lisa and Mom.

I am angry about what Lisa went through.
So when I came home to Denver, I stored my things in the garage. Over the last year Lisa has thrown away all of my stuff. Most of it was stuff Mom and I shared...Like all the dolls I made her over the years. My Mom can't do anything about it because Lisa is abusive
I think Lisa is doing what ever she has to, to validate her own position. Hence, she has announced that I am a demon and she is a shaman.
That is the bond that they have and part of their bond is to invalidate me.
I feel betrayed by the both of them.


The things you said about being in bed with a man who relapses, the bird cage, >the dangerous edges. This dream work has helped me a lot. I really appreciate the work you do
Leslie

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Oh...I know what I was going to say. Right before I came back to Denver I had a dream that I was sitting in the tomb with Jesus. He was weeping and all I could do was sit with him. He said "They're going to crucify me tomorrow and its going to hurt. Where is my father and why ? has he forsaken me."
This dream actually comforted me because if I was dreaming it then it was a part of me that understands crucifixion.
Although many people were unkind when I relapsed. They are no longer in my life.
Then I dreamed I was on a patch of grass floating through the universe and my Dad was sitting on it. I said "what happened Dad? we used to be so close"
He said " I had to pull away because I didn't want to make the same mistakes with you, that I did with Lisa.
I think these two dreams are really important but I'm not sure exactly why. But these dreams have given me strength over the last year

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