Sophia,
Please submit the Dream Submission Form so I can provide a comprehensive analysis of your dream.

Jerry

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Sophia,
I received your Dream Submission Form and will analyze your dream Thursday.

Jerry

Age & Gender & Location {Required}: 66 Cocoa, Fl

Have You Posted Before? Date of Last Post {Use Search and Your Post Name to Help Find Last Post} Yes

Sophia,
I received your Dream Submission Form and should be able to work on your dream on Friday.

A quick analysis {I will provide a thorough analysis Friday}. The dream language of being an adult in a 13 year old body may suggest that period of time is a primary focus of the dream. The book name you quoted may also provide some clues {about a merchant in 16th-century Venice must default on a large loan provided by an abused Jewish moneylender}. The part that may be relevant would likely be the abuse/physical and or psychological application}.

The dream does begin with an end to one aspect and a possible beginning of something new/positive {last of snow/beginning of spring}. The info related to the book may point to learning something that you have not prepared for or studied {given thought to}. The ear of being paddled may point to inner fears of punishment, possible punishing yourself for something you did not do but instead something someone else did to you {self blame is common when a young person is abused}. Not getting past the first page of the book and being distracted by other students {in one aspect related to actual experiences, on a deeper level symbolic of being distracted by other aspects of your life}. There does seem to be something you are afraid to 'read' about yourself {the books would be associated with aspects of yourself}. The fear of punishment again enters into the equation. There is something that needs to be gotten out {I just wanted to get out of the situation and kept telling myself 'You have to get out of here. You have to get out of here."}.

As for the age of 13. In the dream you are an adult in a 13 year old body. In your submission form at the age of 13 you experienced a change in your attitude. Look back at that time frame and delve deep to see if you can remember more. Is there something you have pushed back into your unconscious/repressed/forgotten? The teacher could very well be an inner aspect that will teach you what these things might be. The anxieties related to a 'lie' {lying to yourself} could be the primary focus of the dream. Give some deep, serious thought to when you were 13.

Note: I did go back and look at your posted dream in 2011. That dream goes back to earlier formative years and may suggest attitudes you have toward men {not having a father after age 6}. What is your attitude toward relationships now? If the formative years had negative influences early in life perhaps this dream is expanding on those attitudes by pointing to experiences when you were 13. Were there any experiences at that age with males that may be relevant?

Jerry

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Thank you for your reply.

To answer your question about relationships, I don't really allow men to get very close to me emotionally. I am very guarded and don't maintain relationships for longer than three months. After that initial getting to know you phase, the newness and excitement wears off for me and I end things or force an ending in order to move on to the next "new" relationship. The longest relationship I did have was 2 years. It was a good relationship but I wasn't in love with that person. I'd even resigned myself to the prospect of being married to him and and having a good marriage based on friendship. However, I moved to a different state for work and as with most long distance relationships, it didn't last long after my move. I wasn't overly upset. I was very sad that I lost a very good friend. In fact, I didn't even cry about it. Maybe a couple of months later I started dating someone else. That person turned out to be abusive so I got out of it. Since then I have avoided any real relationship aside from occasionally going out to dinner or drinks.

As for the significance of the age of 13, I had to really think about this. I realized that this was during the time that I was learning to close myself off to the outside world. I was different from my classmates and friends. I liked classical music, I read books, I used so-called "big words" and they just didn't get me. Because I was different, I was bullied a-lot. I started to realize I couldn't let everyone in. This belief because more solidified by the time high school was over. It's a practice I adhere to with everyone, including my family.

Hope this helps!

Thanks again,
S

Age & Gender & Location {Required}: 39/F Chicago, IL

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Sophia,
The two probably have much to do with each other {short relationships/cutting yourself off from people at age 13}. I sensed the relationship conflict. The fear of punishment in some way likely goes to deeper emotions from early childhood where the experiences carried over to how you feel about men. Coming from a single parent home and being raised by women is the model you know {from childhood} and because of those experiences you unconsciously if consciously have follow in that pattern. It is common to do this since the young psyche is most influenced by experiences from early childhood {the first 3 years in childhood development are the most important with personality being set by age nine}. What you learn in the first years is the pattern you most likely will follow through life. Just how it does develop depends on other aspect of life including DNA but we do know the childhood model is true.

The thing about dreams is they do have a way of stating these facts through symbolic imagery. Being 13 in an adult body suggests there are emotional energies from age 13 that still affect your adult life. If you look even deeper to why you withdrew from interactions with other people at age 13 you will probably discover reasons related to earlier life that caused you to do so. The bullying played a role but why a child/person is bullied is likely dependent in some way to personality {a withdrawn child would likely be bullied more so than someone who is open and spontaneous}. Getting to the foundations of personality is important because it will allow you to understand the unconscious energies that control your life {throughout life until the issues are resolved}. Your dream is trying to inform you to these energies so you can resolve the issues to do with relationships. Understanding why you felt different in school will help you understand why those energies still affect you as an adult. Having had an abusive relationship as an adult doesn't help {the question may be why you chose that person to have a relationship to begin with}. It is psychological and may have been unconsciously driven.

I could go into the detail and fit the images/actions with what I know about your life but I think we have discovered the primary message of the dream. The questions is are there any forgotten/repressed experiences of abuse during childhood that need to be realized? Not necessarily sexual abuse but psychological. Bullying is psychological as well as physical. The experiences at age 13 as well as when you were in the 8th grade standout {one from the dream, the other from your submission form}. Examine those years and see if you find anything relevant to why you have problems in relationships as well as other aspects in your life.

Jerry

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