Anonymous,
To address your questions from my analysis.
Dream: she appears to be struggling/banging guitar
Amplification: internal conflict related to passion/emotions

Your question: What I do and what I want to do are two different things?
Answer: Your recognition for why you were emotionally stunted is a big first step in resolving this issue. Internal conflicts more often than not begin in early life with the experiences during those years becoming motivators for personality and personal attitude. Few people realize/know this. Dreams are nature's tool to help bring these conflicts out so the dreamer does understand why they act/react to certain experiences in life {yours is primarily relationships} where there are emotional conflict. You can't resolve an issue unless you know what they are. Understanding your problem with starting and maintaining relationships allows you to take steps to change what was imprinted on your psyche during childhood. Looking back at relationships and the people involved during the early years will provide insights to the reasons. The saying, like parents like child holds true. It is very likely you are imitating one or both your parents when it comes to this conflict.

Dream: person continues to struggle/leave them be
Amplification: struggling with emotions but not making any changes
Your comments: Every weekend I say I will change my habits but ultimately I give into temptation and drink.

This is typical. The source of your emotional conflict is so ingrained in your psyche you have to find substitutes or ways to conceal the emotions. It takes great strength to make the needed changes. One avenue that Jung offered was finding the creative aspect within yourself and through that let the emotional pain drain away by focusing on the positive aspects of the creative self {if not creative then some project or goal you feel important to your life}. Spirituality is another avenue although religion can be as damaging as the intended cure if the focus is on converting instead of remedying the problem. Of course the best way is psychological therapy.

Dream:
she is not dressed like typical self-
Amplification: something other than you are/should be...Not being my ideal self
Your comment: Not being my ideal self

Exactly. You are unable to be your idea self because of the unconscious emotional energies. You know the major problem, you now need to better understand why and how to make the changes necessary so you can be that idea self. You can never be whole, have a productive life until you resolve the inner issues. We all have issues.

The issue you are dealing with is 'massive' which likely points to not only deep seeded energies from early life. The 'house' is nice, the house is you and being nice is probably a statement of your overall person. The social event may be pointing to a particular aspect of your early life {and how it affects you in social events as an adult} in dealing with community and relationships. It is also your 'collective' experiences, the negatives that are at the foundations to the issue with relationships.

As for the return to drinking. The amplification of the ending of the dream suggests there may still be something hidden that needs to come out. repressed experiences such as psychological or/and physical abuse {beyond what we have discussed}. This is re-enforced by several images and actions at the ending of the dream. Spend some great time in examining those early years and see what comes up. It is always a good thing to revisit early life because for everyone there is something 'hidden' {in mythology there is often that 'one hidden thing' that is key to the story}. Knowing what is unknown, what has been forgotten or repressed, once realized may be the key to resolving a prime issue associated with your emotional conflicts.

Jerry

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