Alyssa,
Having the bare minimum personal information {age and gender} I can only provide an outline of the emotional energies in a dream. But usually that is enough to give the dreamer clues to what energies are affecting if not controlling their conscious life. The added info always helps. Knowing your whole life info would allow a complete and useful analysis. That is if your dreams are a part of the analysis/therapy. Dreams are a direct link to the unconscious and from my general analysis you can see how much can be derived from one dream. Of course you would need a therapist who uses Jungian concepts to be able to tap into your dreams. But therapy is essential no matter the method being used. As long as the emotional energies are allowed to remain wholeness will be elusive. Continue the therapy and with time you should find some closure to the issues that plague you. Forgiveness is a big step and you are correct in working with that.

As for the dream and the info in your response. Looking over the amplified images and actions the dream language, "she held my head and leaned over to kiss me - i liked the kiss and kissed her back" does seem to be addressing your neglected side which would point to your relationship with your mother {beginning in childhood, the most important years if life in psyche development}. Most of the other images and actions are addressing the general weight of the emotional energies and disturbances you are dealing with. Getting to the reason you have these strong feelings about questioning your sexuality would be important. I can see how a neglected childhood and a bad mother relationship would cause a need for feminine support and possible questions about sexuality. What was lacking in childhood is a prime motivator for actions in later life, a need to substitute what was lacking with attention and love from feminine sources. Are you attracted to or tend to navigate to a certain type female type? If so that may affirm a replacement in a type woman for your mother. Also, if you are truly a 'lesbian' I would think those tendencies would radiate in your conscious life. If your 'attraction' to women is not a soulful endeavor then I would go with the mother substitute as the motivating factor for questioning your sexuality. And there is the 'bi-sexual' aspect many people grapple with but that usually comes about in later life. Exploration beyond the true sexual identity due to various reasons, including failure in relationships with the opposite sex and seeking non-committal sex with the same gender. Even that would have unresolved emotional energies.

If you want to seek more info from future dreams you can post them for my analysis {always free analysis}. The first dream usually opens the door to greater insights in subsequent dreams. The insights come with an analysis of those dreams. Until then I suggest you read more about dreams and the Jungian approach and concepts at my Power of Dreams website.

Jerry

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Great analysis, was plasure reading it.

I notice only female elements, persons in the dreams so it is about feminity.

I am not an expert, but usually people try to compensate. If someone does not get the deserved love from the mother then he, she could try to unconsciously get it from another person.

In case the primal relationship(mother- daughter) was disturbed you could have problems with accepting and loving the feminity in yourself.) Jungian solution would be to stop looking for the mother outside of you but discover it in yourself and be a mother to yourself, develop mothering qualities.


Hot tub like water - strong emotions
In the dream your dream ego is passive and the woman comes to you and kisses you, similar as mother would,.. perheaps your wish to be loved and kissed by mother like figure?

Age & Gender & Location {Required}: 31, M

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Age & Gender & Location {Required}: 68 Cocoa, Fl