Thanks for your response,
Well I am in the process of concealing my opposites parts, and my confrontation with my unconscious, which is still dark to me, I do feel something strong in me, the side I usually don’t show, or never?, and the external or more conscious? is a soft kind of personality I have, I mean the way a I talk, character, I don’t know where this strength is coming from. I thought it will go away after I got into a good terms and become friend with my ex, but now is like a passion to do certain things or activities, a commitments, being disciplined with myself. If I have to get to know that aggressive nature in me, I have to prepare myself?

This aspect of my personality (agressive) could be something that I don’t know or have not discovered yet?, what make you think is repressed?

In regard of intellectual changes I am in the stage of following my intuitive strong passion, to learn what I really like, I don’t go into this with pre-settled ideas; every thing is new to me. I have been studying in the university and discovered they don’t teach you all, the courses you take are settled by a group of “intellectuals”, and this is very limited, is like put barriers on you..

This path ok knowing myself could be sometimes stressful..

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Marie,
Obviously you do have a soft personality and in the world today that is often seen as a weakness. I see it as a positive. I sensed this aspect very keenly in your dream post. Do you have any difficulities in general in your waking life where you find yourself at a disadvantage because of your personality?

I say repress when it could be a matter of simply ignoring this masculine aspect. You say you are in the process of concealing your opposite parts. Is this done knowingly and if so why? Is there soemthing deeper that you are trying to conceal. I ask these questions just to clarify your position for my better understanding. I think I approached your dream properly. It now remains a matter of determining what processes that need addressing. Concelaing is a form of repression and repression is done only when one has not yet acknowledge the opposites properly. That something strong within could very well be that masculine self wanting to be expressed, not as the master of your life but as an equal, creating balance. If indeed your personality is too soft then perhaps you need a stronger masculine presence to balance out your personality. Not an easy thing to do but may be what you need.

Let me know your thoughts on my comments.
Gerard

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Yeah, sometimes I felt I need to show my strong part, when find myself in that situations my response is to be aside. I felt strong inside in a way of being very independent, can say rebel, questioning every thing, in don’t try to just follow a way of thinking, living. These thoughts or determination (I’m trying to put a name on them), are different on the way I project my personality, my actions, like being scared of a roach, being introspective, shy sometimes, at my age!! All these things are the opposite. I just feel need to balance them.

I don’t know yet if there is something deeper to conceal, at least I don’t sense other conflicts now, most of the time I feel in “peace”, you give me a good point of view, thank you, I just read Jung and in this paragraph he said each of us needs to create our own recipe to conceal our opposites, do you have any idea on this?, perhaps I need to start drawing my mandalas.

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Marie,
The repression could be your inability to project your true self to the outer world. As an extravert I lived an introverted life as a boy. I believe it stunted my growth in many ways. If I had not recovered {via the help of a male role model teacher in high school} I could very well still live in that introverted state. An extravert living as an introvert can never find true balance because the true self has never had the opportunity to express itself.

Normally such inabilities to be that true self stem from factors from early in life {as mine did}. There may a deeper repression some where. Mandalas are great to meditate with. But I would focus on more self examination of the inner self through Jung's 'Individuation Process'. It takes effort but understanding the psyche opens up new understanding of those things you could not understand before. Something that has been there all along suddenly opens up, and you see.
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