Jerry,
Thank you for taking the time to respond to my rather lengthly submission. I also apologize for some of the foul language used (I wrote it in the middle of the night feeling quite scared) I found your analysis very true and helpful. I agree that I do have quite a few emotional issues that impede me from interacting affectively with people, especially those my own age, and feel that I struggle to be the teenager I want to be. This past week I, along with my mum, have been making arrangements to get a mental health assessment for an issue that has haunted me since I was young which we believe to be OCD. This analysis has really helped me come to terms with the prevalence of a problem which i downplay way too much to myself. You mention a 'shadow' which I am curious about, I am still not entirely sure what it means. As for the gym, I don't have any direct traumatic memories linked to a gym, but growing up I was always much thinner than anyone else my age, causing me to do all I could to cover my body. I suppose Gym class was a place where I was forced to expose myself, giving me horrible nerves. Maybe that's what that means? If you wouldn't mind, I'd appreciate it if you looked at this more recent dream: (thankfully it's much shorter)

I didn't take the time to write this one down, so I forget a lot of it. But the ending disturbed me greatly and caused me to wake up terrified. I remember my neighbour lying on the floor, me on top of him, and me clawing his face away with a metal dog brush. There was no blood but his face had about the consistancy of clay as I mutilated his features away. His face was a messy, featureless mess when I was done with it. I was breathing heavily, mortified with myself. Suddenly an eye emerge beneath the goop that was his face and he yelled something along the lines of 'YOU THINK YOU CAN GET RID OF ME THAT EASILY?'

I mean I don't like this guy but I don't have such hate for him as this dream portrays. He is a loud, obnoxious man and I am very quiet, maybe that has something to do with it.

Thank you for your insight!
-Abby

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Abby,
It is wise to get a professional assessment of your condition. The sooner you learn to understand what energies there are that prevent you from being the normal teenager you wish to be the sooner you can become normal. Left untreated you will take that baggage into the rest of your life which could be catastrophic.

As for the last part of your response. The neighbor could have been a real person. But 'he' could {instead} represent some aspect of your true self, another part of your whole self, a neighbor to your true self. He is masculine which would suggest a masculine association {aggression?}. You are on top which may suggest a thinking attitude you possess {again masculine}. You are clawing at the face which may represent your ego self {and possibly a real person's face if applicable to a true experience}. The 'aggression' in the dream would be directed at yourself. You are trying to aggressively alter your ego self {wanting to be the normal teenage}. But it is not that easy to do which may suggest something out of balance more than just psychological. It may be genetics or a 'chemical imbalance' {you mentioned OCD}. What your doctor/psychologist recognizes from an examination is already known by your unconscious psyche. That knowledge, as is all knowledge involving psychological as well as physical handicaps, is available in your dreams, long before the doctor examines you.


Jerry

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