I'm glad my dreams are useful to you :) Anyhow I was a huge tomboy as a kid. When I got older I grew out of it but I guess I'm still sort of a tomboy at heart. I can see how I would be neglecting the more feminine aspects of my personality. But I mean I wouldn't really define my personality as either more male or female, I'm just me, you know? I mean there's the side of me that likes videogames and wrestling with my brothers and stuff like that but also the side that squeals at cute animals and cute guys, you know? I'm pretty comfortable with both sides of myself and just think of me as myself as opposed to more masculine or feminine.

As for the beast side of me, I don't really think I get a chance to act out like her against my real life issues, though I wish I could. She just tackles everything head on, when she has an issue she doesn't put up with it she solves it. I guess I like being able to transform into her so much because in real life I just sort of feel helpless to my problems. I can't do anything. I can't fight the monsters, you know? If I brought out her in my real life things would probably get better for me, not worse. I don't really have an explosive anger or anything. As a kid I guess I did, when I got really mad I'd hit or pinch or whatever, but it wasn't like I got into fight or anything it would be more like I was cranky and my siblings were annoying me. But when I got to a certain age like 10 or something I made myself promise never to hit someone out of anger again, and I haven't broken that promise since, so eh. Other than that I really don't act out negatively in any way. I care about myself and even when I'm at my worst I refuse to hurt myself in any way, whether it's physical or doing something like drinking or drugs. I like to seek positive outlets for my emotions, and mainly write or listen to music or draw or whatever.

And I do look out for my siblings a lot- I'm chief babysitter haha.

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Anna,
Thanks for sharing your story. It tells us a lot about you and your dreams. The tomboy attitude plus the early life responsibilities placed on you would fit with your dreams, and the reason there are so many males in your dream. There is a need for a strong masculine and in Jungian psyche what is lacking in the outer life would be counter in the inner life {in the unconscious and your dreams}.

The good news is there does seem a balance in the outer life. You are able to be that normal female and yet take charge when you are called upon to help take care of family {taking care of younger siblings}. I think it is pretty clear that the primary conflicts in your life are having to grow up so fast and take on so many responsibilities. That and the fact you seldom stay in one place long enough to feel settled. You do seem to have weathered the difficulties in early life very well and with your intelligent intellect you should do well in life. I suggest you continue to keep tabs on your dreams {if not a journal} since you do seem to have an ability to work with them. The lucid dreaming and how you manage those are impressive. It has surely been a lesson for those of us who want to learn all we can about dreams. Studies in lucid dreaming have come a long ways and the actual working with these types dreams as we have been doing is very educational. You would do well if should ever decide to make dream study a part of your life.


Jerry

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