Holden,
First off a reply to my analysis wild be greatly appreciated. It takes a lot of time to analyze a dream {especially a long dream which is often repetitive}. All my work is free. All I ask is a thoughtful reply and hopefully context with your reply.

Summary of my analysis
Despite this being a long dream there is a simple message. You have come to a stage/period of your life you want to make changes but you are finding it difficult to do because of two main factors. One is the current situation with your stepfather, a literal conscious experience. The second is much deeper. Having to overcome early life programming and a lack of proper parenting from both parents {but with more serious issues with your father}. The first and second are related {synchronized} in both father and stepfather have 'rejected' you. Your father never giving you proper love and acceptance and your stepfather adding to shared experiences with 'fathers' by kicking you out. The former can be resolved by finding your own place in life {away from stepfather}. The latter will require psychological counseling, the deeper issues with your father embedded in your unconscious and being controlling agents in living your life. Early life programming {with father/parents} is preventing you from being your true self and finding harmony in life. You are unconsciously driven by these energies and are hindering your search for peace and harmony. This is pretty much the message of the dream.

A little context to my summary analysis above. Dreams have a language of symbol and metaphor {because man's earliest form of expression was in symbols, cave paintings, hieroglyphs, etc}. There are also literal applications {as noted in my interpretation of images/actions below. All the people in a dream have shared experiences or qualities related to you and your experiences. In short they are you and the actions are actions from/in your life. Your dreams are about you and your emotional energies and the function of dreams is to help resolve what is out of balance. Just as the body has the immune system to heal and protect, the psych{ology} has the dream. It is nature's mechanism.

There is good news about the negative dream. At age 20 you have your whole life ahead of you to resolve the issues. If not resolved your life will never find the harmony and happiness you seek because you are under control of the unconscious energies. Some say this is silly but it is real. Making changes involves more than changes in how you have been living/acting. It also involves making changes in how the unconscious energies have control. That will take psychological counseling, working through the issues by realizing what they are. Everyone has issues and most everyone would benefit from counseling. I found my path forward by understanding how I was imitating my father in so many negative ways and changing the energies from those experiences. The way forward is psychological.

Read my interpretation of the images and actions {I've provided them without the dream language}. See if they don't fit with your life. Having some limited info on your personal life helps but with just that I am able to provide an outline of the emotional energies. If I knew more about your personal life I would be able to provide where each fit on a more exact scale.


Interpretation of Images/Actions

anxieties about your place in life
feeling unfulfilled related to emotional needs not being met
an end to positive outlook

Abandonment {feelings of if not literal}

feelings of rejection

acknowledging shared qualities/rejected aspects
current experiences connected to past experiences
a part of you related to dead emotional energies
imprinted feminine energies related to your past
dead emotional energies that cause confusion in your life
emotional release
feeling dead inside

unconscious escape from life issues
Positive spin on how you express yourself
unconscious energies you can not control
repressed aggression toward your father/stepfather

literal application/unresolved issues with your father/stepfather
literal application/giving attention to what causes you to do things in life
{controlling emotional energies}

an unconscious emotional aspect related to ‘synchronize’/conformity with masculine and feminine energies
{foundational/early life programming with parents}

unconscious masculine aspect that attempts to become conscious

getting past fixed emotional energies
avoiding the unknown
repetitive actions/experiences
involved with some questionable people who may be harmful to your well-being
Conforming to your instincts and urges


conscious expression of inner emotional energies
communication with higher self/feeling preyed upon by father?
conscious life in extreme conflict

fears and insecurities that have changed you
a need to realize unconscious energies/tendencies and unconscious barriers in your desire to make changes

repressed emotional and possible physical pain
causing a lack of physical strength and trust


expression of repressed anger
due to repetitive actions/experiences

moving between conscious self taking form of repressed energies
unconscious energies taking on human characteristics
{conforming to unconscious drives in conscious life}

repressing repulsive tendencies

exhibiting rejected aspects
repressed emotional energies preventing you from fully expressing yourself

emotional energies penetrating unconscious barriers attempting to become conscious
getting rid repressed energies

unresolved issues with father/stepfather {literal}
expressing repressed energies overcoming the numbing aspects
application of unconscious energies
unconscious/conscious energies that are plaguing your ability to stay on right path

out of balance life due to unconscious energies {father/stepfather relationship?}

repeat of similar experiences

rational actions nullified by anger

anger driven by masculine authoritative energies
escaping emotional suffering

rejected aspects messaging from the unconscious

archived experiences of compulsive energies

making changes while not knowing results

covering up true emotions {putting a happy face on a distressful life}

essential aspects of your emotions have been cut off
faced with unconscious energies that control you
affecting whole life

Conscious display of what is unconscious

Realization of a life void of true emotions/questioning your life

Jerry

Age & Gender & Location {Required}: 70 Altoona, Fl